One day

I want to walk with you in the city
Hearing nothing but the sounds of cars and the winter breeze.

I want to hold you hand whilst looking at the sun setting down.

I want to talk to you many hours on end knowing that you shall be protected by my affection and care.

I want to watch the river flowing past the stones we step on while you hum a sweet lullaby.

One day

One day.

erik

How hard is it to let go?

For the past eight months I have been overcome with sadness after I damaged a growing friendship beyond repair because I liked that person. Would you call it love if you had feelings for person that you hardly new and you believed you did. To me it was so...

I've tried to move on from this love but its not working at all. Am I meant to make myself more busy? Am I meant to seek more people? Am I being selfish? There are so many questions that I am asking and as a result I become clingy.

I have annoyed people, let people down because of this and I'm sorry.

K.Will ~ 이러지마 제발 (Please don't...) - Opinions.

The other day my friend shared this video on his Facebook. With my liking for KPop I wanted to watch the video for "the ending" that he really emphasized onto his post. Like all party-poopers, I used the cursor the use the image scan on the Video's Timebar to see what the ending was... I was shocked... (and I was in regret) but I decided to watch the video anyway.

If you want to watch the video:

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Spoilers will appear in this following paragraph if you haven't watch the video yet:

The story is basically unrequited love which was never confessed. This is also known as the "I don't know that you love me... here's my partner!". As I'm currently in that phase of life where I fell in love with someone but that person is not in love with me and I'm being moping and being depressed and all that I could relate to The Main Guy in this video (Seo In Guk) who was absolutely distraught when he thought he would get the chance to be with the man that he loves. This does not apply to only two men but it could apply to any gender combination. I know people who are in this situation and its hard for them when they realize that they are no longer (or never was) an option of the person that they loved so deeply. Obviously it would create the most saddest of feelings if you were in that situation.

What I really liked in this video was the symbolism in this video. Yes maybe there is the "curtains are blue because they are" element in most of the video. Dasom's characer in the car symbolizes Seo In Guk's character's feeling of hatred,  envy, annoyance and disbelief that all these things are happening. As the video progresses Dasom becomes more quiet which symbolizes SIG character's feelings unable to comprehend all the feelings and that he's trying to keep inside. The room where the stairs don't have a banister symbolises insecurity... (okay I'm making this symbolism up) but as Seo In Guk goes up and down the stairs he's has this feeling of uncertainty and jealousy since the person he loves is with someone else.

The song itself was beautiful musically and lyrically. The song can apply to anyone who is in this situation and it doesn't have that "gender" restriction.

Letting you go is not as easy as it sounds
I turn away, not being able to see you leave me
Tears eventually drop and I need to wipe them away now
I don’t know whether I should use the handkerchief you gave me or throw it away
Why won’t this trembling go away?

The lyrics speak for itself, this can be interpreted as someone who is not willing to let go. It could be a girl, a guy... who knows? It could also reflect your own feelings.

Review: A+


Anyway I'll end this here... I won't proofread I guess I'll post it.

Rain

Ugh I just hate it when it it rains... It was sunny and hot a few days ago but don't get me wrong I like "winter weather" but right now it isn't the time.

Times that past.

I've been thinking for quite a while on how much time has past since various events have occured in my life. I am actually quite suprised that I made it this far.

There are so many things that I still need to do in life and I sometimes feel like I'm overdoing things or doing things more than they need to be done. I really think it is best if I "chill" for a bit since I'm taking things very hard at the moment... that doesn't make any sense what so ever haha.

Going back to blogging?

Well I'm not sure whether I'll be blogging here or tumblr... I'll think about it. In the meantime here's a pic of flan.

Wow a new change... new life?

I haven't been on Blogspot in ages and then when I am just about to go back I see a massive change with blogspot. I hope my love for it doesn't change because I kind of do miss it.

Lets see what I've been doing for the past year or so
-Uni
-Youth Group
-Being lovesick forever
-Telling people my secrets
-School Placement

You may know the rest...

anyway I'll post more soon.

This is DREW over and out :D.